Dear YOU,

                      I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. 

                    Everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why - you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. 

                    It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them. And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this... And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. 

           Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this.

 I felt the exact pain you're dealing with. Feel the pain.. every piece of it.. it might be unbearable but one day, you'll wake up and the pain's gone-you'd be whole again.TRUST ME. :)

The Difference

Unfortunately, not all first relationships we dwell into end up being our last. And face it- the first time we realize that our ought to be dude or damsel in distress became a rather distressing damsel or dude instead. Then we focus so much on the pain that they caused, and we end up hurting ourselves too much.

Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we love leaves us, but the truth is, it's not our loss, but theirs, for they left the only person who wouldn't give up on them.

And then we unconsciously share our story to some people we halfheartedly or even wholeheartedly trust. We tell them that we have undergone an unbearable pain that would last maybe a day after forever, a pain that just went because whatever was that thing we felt with that person we were with before just was wrong and temporary, and that we should not have wasted time with that person when we knew it would just end up like this.

Love is like a puzzle.
When you're in love,
all the pieces fit but
when your heart gets broken,
it takes a while to get everything back together.

And then suddenly, one person we told our so tragic a story shares his/her consents about what you feel- that the person is the one that makes you smile when you remember those bad memories, that he/she makes you feel better every time you feel bad- and then suddenly, you think, and you feel, that you're in love again.

Despair leads to betrayal.

And also, the person we told not even half our life's story to feels the same, awkward way to you too- and in an awkward evening in an awkward occasion, in an awkward timing, you confess to each other. And boom, there goes another story. And maybe another ending.


It's not serendipity, but just a force entry to your broken heart.

Looking at the two sides of the coin though, I guess it's plain wrong. It's not love- it's pity. It's remorse, mercy, charity, sympathy, empathy, and almost every other thing other than love. If you have someone suddenly appearing in your life after a really shocking incident, be happy- but do not abuse the happening. I don't really think that love can develop in such a short span of time and maybe it's just for the sake of a rebound- which is painful, but inescapably true.

And also, if suddenly, a friend or maybe even an acquaintance of yours suddenly bestows you the hurt story of his/her life, and you feel a mysterious feeling lurking inside you, it's not love, and it's never going to be. It's just pity for the person because you realize he/she just went through a phase that wasn't really that friendly.

If you don't want to get involved, never comfort a fragile heart- sympathy and empathy are easily mistaken for love.

It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. I guess, we don't have to resort into such rash decisions. If we were hurt, then we give time for our hearts to heal, and not just stake it once again and maybe just end up hurting it again. We wait.

To win the heart of a NURSE, we must be PATIENT.

Also, when we hear someone else's love story that didn't really turn out to be a love story at all, we need to comfort the person, yes- but in a friendly way, and no other way. Actually, some people try to persuade us to love them when they say that they've been hurt- but we shouldn't really give in to that. Who would want a relationship that would be developed out of that? Love doesn't develop out of pity. Pity is way too far out of the context of love. Love is something that develops suddenly, coincidentally, and mysteriously- not because of sympathy, but of plain serendipity. :)

We don't love someone just because we care for them, but we care for someone because we love them. :D

Missing Someone

A new day begins. You eat, surf, chat, read, exercise, laugh, dance, sing, and do everything else that you can- but still, there's something that your heart is yearning for. There's something that blunders and ultimately makes all the rest of your days incomplete- and you suddenly remember- oh, it was him/her.


If you love someone more than anything, then distance only matters to the mind, not to the ♥


Missing someone- is a test more difficult than anything you take in school. It's where you test your conviction about the both of you- where you can actually know that you love the person more than anything in the world.


Can miles truly separate you? If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there?


Distance- a short but stout word. Most people say that LDRs (Long Distance Relationships) don't work out because you just don't feel the love at all when one is in the Earth while the other's in Mars. But I think, it's a wrong perception about LDRs. I salute to those people who are in those kind of relationships, actually. I think they're one of the strongest types of relationships. It's hard to keep, but still they manage to keep that fire burning and warming up. They're doing everything to not let what they started end.


Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart.


Honesty, loyalty, commitment- these words make are like love to you in a relationship- since it's what keeps the relationship alive. As I see it, distance isn't a killer, but rather, an elixir of strengthening a relationship- because it keeps us from being astray and the more we miss a person, the more we realize we love the person. :)


If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden.


Even heaven can be hell if you miss someone. Yes- missing someone is indeed a a hard thing to do and manage, but it's one great step towards utter perfection. Because, as long as you know what your worth is with each other, distance doesn't really matter- since love just overflows and conquers every nasty feeling inside your heart. Because, as we always knew, absence makes the heart grow fonder. :)


Missing a person isn't thinking about what he/she's LEFT in your life, but thinking about what he/she's done RIGHT in your life. :)))

HOPE ♥ DESTINY ♥

Destiny

Destiny- an invisible yet playful being that exhumes our confusions about things. It brings everything where it should be, when it should be, where it should be. It brought Romeo to Juliet, Ariel to Eric, Fiona to Shrek, and every girl to her man. But is it true that your first love never dies? Is it always necessary that the first will be your last? I guess, no. Sometimes, destiny just challenges us if we're patient and persevering enough to wait for the right time. 

Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile,
And finds in your presence that life is worth while,
So when you are lonely, remember it's true:
Somebody, somewhere is thinking of you.

Sometimes, when we fall in love, it's mostly the wrong person- since true love comes only once. And if we ever fall for the right person, it's sometimes comes in the wrong time. Maybe we can say that destiny decided you should look the other way, that we should just WAITfor the time where destiny actually allows something trivial like love exists.

Serendipity: Look for something, find something else, and realize that what you've found is more suited to your needs than what you thought you were looking for.

Unrequited love- the feeling when emotions are just one-sided. For most people's point of view, it's a suckish, sad, devastating feeling that does nothing but harms your soul. However, for me, it's just an indication that you need get more courage and strength to hold on to such a feeling called love. As long as you do not lose it, it will always be good, and one day, it will bring you good.

Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back, soften and purify the heart.

Most people say they'll wait until some day, destiny will bring them what they deserved. But, as I see it, destiny isn't something that needs waiting, but something that needs motivating. We do not do nothing so that destiny could do something, but do everything so we can fix our destiny to the things we want our lives to be into.

Destiny is no matter of chance. It is a matter of choice: It is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved.

Love, seeks to make someone else happy rather than to be happy. Unrequited love was never wrong- since one day, as long as you have enough efforts and enough will, it will become requited. We never had a hold on destiny, yes, but we always had our bodies and souls to do everything to mark a path for our destiny. :)

We are not creatures of circumstance; we are creators of circumstance.

And so, I guess, even if that person that we love right now has someone else in their arms, as long as our emotion remains strong and still, who knows? Maybe one day, the person will come to us or maybe someone better will come. As long as we make the right choices, the right moves, and the right emotions, one day, we will find true love. As long as we have a heart, we always have love. :)

We do not love because we can do everything- we can do everything because we love. ;)

ALMOST GIVING UP :(

, comes another story to tell, not for auction.

On the eyebrow of chaos and on the waistline of destruction

So violently it struck me, those words I never wanted to hear

A short drop and a sudden stop, my eye dropped a tear

Forgetting existence because I was devoured by fear

You like her, you like her Oh dear.

And so it was brutal.

Like a slash of a sword and like a whip from a stick

Your words tore me apart and they made me sick

Sure, actions speak louder than words

But they came from you- my whole world.

Exaggerating? A little. But I just want you to know that it's remarkable how my feelings for you fade and go back.

Lucky though I might seem,

to and end must come this dream.

I always though we were a team,

But later on, I realized... I was charcoal, and you were cream

One last thing you must know: I will always... love you. Difficult to believe, but it's true. Having you enter my life was already a good thing that happened in me. :)

And so, like a slash of a sword and a whip of a stick

Like the slap of a wrist and the speed of a wink

To you milady, I bid adieu

You may never accept it, but I'll always love you.

Yeah, you're better off with her.

We can't be together,

We were meant to meet again never.

And so, with a tear and with a slight grin

My humbled opponent, you now win. :'(

SO..YEAH.. :(

''My life is over! :( " the line I've been saying since summer, since the day he never texted,called, nor talk to me. I've spent sleepless nights, crying in the agony of loosing my best friend, of loosing my love.But these cries were never enough to ease the pain-every teardrop was a knife stabbed to my ♥ :(

 I never told him how much I love him, it's because I've always been hurt every time i fall in love. My first love? I've cried a river.. My Second? It was a disaster.. And NOW? uhmm well.. ahahha.xDD. 

I'm not a typical teenager-I'm not a FLIRT, I don't care about my fashion sense, I don't care if my hair falls untidily. I'm not the kind of girl who dresses up like a wanna be.Well, I guess I'm weird. But my friends say my attitude is far from my social status. I'm not bragging but..well.xD 

I value my friends more than I value myself.. that's the thing that's effin about me.. I'm a martyr when it comes to people who have a special place in my heart. That's why I'm sometimes disregarded and ignored because I'll always be there to support them... Is it bad though? 

AND WHAT'S THE WORST THING ABOUT ME? 

I'M A COWARD IN SAYING WHAT I TRULLY FEEL..

I TRULY LOVE HIM.. EVEN NOW...I STILL DO.. I NEVER STOP... I NEVER WILL- though there's this pain in my chest.

"I LOVE YOU..I MAY NOT TELL YOU..BUT I SHOWED YOU(NOT IN A FLIRTY MANNER). I THOUGHT SUPPORTING AND BEING AROUND YOU WOULD LET YOU REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME.NOW ALL THAT'S LEFT OF YOU ARE OUR MEMORIES.I HOLD ON TO IT.I MISS YOU..." tears :)

It's ALWAYS HIM ♥ It's ALWAYS BEEN HIM ♥ :(

I AM BAD in ENGLISH
BUT
i can tell you
that I LOVE YOU.
.
.
I am BAD in GEOGRAPHY
BUT
i can tell you
thAt you LIVE in my HEART.
.
.
I am BAD in HISTORY
BUT
I can REMEMBER
when i FIRST saw you.
.
.
I am BAD in CHEMISTRY
BUT
I can tell
WHATS the REACTION
when you SMILE.
.
.
I am BAD in PHYSICS
BUT
I can tell the
INTENSITY of SPARK of my EYES
when they SEE you.
.
.
I am BAD in every SUBJECT
BUT
I can TELL ALL
I will PASS all SUBJECTS
if the TOPIC is YOU. ;))