SO..YEAH.. :(

''My life is over! :( " the line I've been saying since summer, since the day he never texted,called, nor talk to me. I've spent sleepless nights, crying in the agony of loosing my best friend, of loosing my love.But these cries were never enough to ease the pain-every teardrop was a knife stabbed to my ♥ :(

 I never told him how much I love him, it's because I've always been hurt every time i fall in love. My first love? I've cried a river.. My Second? It was a disaster.. And NOW? uhmm well.. ahahha.xDD. 

I'm not a typical teenager-I'm not a FLIRT, I don't care about my fashion sense, I don't care if my hair falls untidily. I'm not the kind of girl who dresses up like a wanna be.Well, I guess I'm weird. But my friends say my attitude is far from my social status. I'm not bragging but..well.xD 

I value my friends more than I value myself.. that's the thing that's effin about me.. I'm a martyr when it comes to people who have a special place in my heart. That's why I'm sometimes disregarded and ignored because I'll always be there to support them... Is it bad though? 

AND WHAT'S THE WORST THING ABOUT ME? 

I'M A COWARD IN SAYING WHAT I TRULLY FEEL..

I TRULY LOVE HIM.. EVEN NOW...I STILL DO.. I NEVER STOP... I NEVER WILL- though there's this pain in my chest.

"I LOVE YOU..I MAY NOT TELL YOU..BUT I SHOWED YOU(NOT IN A FLIRTY MANNER). I THOUGHT SUPPORTING AND BEING AROUND YOU WOULD LET YOU REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME.NOW ALL THAT'S LEFT OF YOU ARE OUR MEMORIES.I HOLD ON TO IT.I MISS YOU..." tears :)